So I have become not so personal on my blog as of probably Sept. It was by no means intentional, but at the time I had a lot of issues family wise (both my family and my in-laws). Then came the hustle and bustle of the holiday season, which immediately precedes the birthday parade.
When I started blogging I intended to remain as personal and family oriented with the occasional review and/or giveaway, but began to enjoy sharing products I might not normally have purchased without receiving it from the company or PR rep. I have also posted quite a few sponsored posts, but in our current financial situation every penny helps, so I might as well utilize my blog as such if the money is there.
Even my review and/or giveaway posts have suffered over the last few months. I had a vision when I began planning for the Drama Queens Birthday Parade Event. Never did I imagine to feel abandoned by my own family (not my hubby and daughters, but my mother, sister, grandmother, aunts, uncles and cousins) which resulted in being hit by horrible depression and lacking interest in much of what normally brings me joy. We planned to attend Christmas dinner at my uncle’s home being that he is closer than where it was usually held and we’d be able to get there without a problem. Mere days (like 12/23) before Christmas, no food purchased for the holiday (which we have prepared for our little family and the in-laws since 2008) and not so much as a few dollars put aside that wasn’t spent on gifts for the girls I receive a call from my grandmother that went something like this;
Grandmother: “I just spoke with your uncle and he says there is no room for you to attend dinner, but you are welcome to come for dessert.”
Myself (I may or may not have come off snarky): “Thanks for telling me with no time to purchase anything for us to have for the holiday. You’ve known since Thanksgiving and I have been trying to get you to find out if it is ok that we come.”
Grandmother: “Well you can come for dessert still, but please don’t talk about welfare, foodstamps or your housing search.”
At this point I just mumbled something and got off the phone. I was hurt, upset PISSED! I was only several weeks away from turning 29, an adult, but being treated like a child and told what I could and couldn’t talk about. I felt abandoned, like my family did not care. My mother, sister and nephew live out of state so these “family” (yes because I barely consider them that anymore) didn’t care that my little family would now be basically alone, without a meal on a major holiday. I turned to Facebook, vented to friends, fellow bloggers and mommies like me. This resulted in my uncle and grandmother becoming aware of how I felt, but neither could be bothered to call me. I should have expected that from this uncle since he won’t accept a friend request and has never so much as sent a message asking how myself, hubby or the girls are.
Still hurt and depressed over this my hubby rushes to cash his check on Christmas Eve, head to the grocery store before it closes and pick up as much as he could for a holiday meal. In the end our Christmas was perfect, the girls loved everything they got and it worked our great because we could remain home so they could play with their new toys. While I missed the days before marriage and kids, with dessert, coffee and a few glasses of wine while playing board games a family I learned that we as a family need not rely on anyone else and we’ll begin our own traditions as our girls grow.
All while this is going on, my new laptop crashed on the same day my grandmother called me. All saved email pertaining to the event, pictures, bookmarks and anything I needed/wanted saved was lost. I try to back it up before having to do a full system restore and the file said stuff was in there, but when I tried to restore it there was nothing. I had planned to begin writing reviews/giveaways to publish on their own as the event began on 1/1, but that didn’t happen because I had to try and find as many emails I lost pertaining to the reviews.
Birthday season arrived pretty good, but began the attack of the snowstorms here in MA., and the never ending colds that lasted weeks upon weeks. The month long colds ended, to be followed by yet another cold/fever outbreak and I seriously began contemplating quarantining our entire house to avoid more illness. We still are battling colds as I type this.
I have gotten so down that I even began thinking about no longer blogging or taking a “Bloggy Break” to enjoy some mommy time and family time, but slowly I am getting out of my slump. So I turn to you, my faithful readers, in hopes to stimulate my mind and share a little more about the family and myself. What would you like to learn more about? I am an open book and will answer all questions (within reason that is, i.e. if I believe the answer might hurt someone I know to be reading I might refrain from answering or not fully answering). I want to interact with my readers more and I even invite you to friend me on my personal Facebook page. So ask away! Heck I am even willing to take pictures of random family life stuff.