Have you ever had just one of those days? You know what I’m talking about, those days that turn into weeks and eventually months. It all started in April with the death of my papa, followed in May by the death of my friend. In between the deaths my hubby slipped at work and messed up his arm leaving him out of work for close to two weeks. Shortly after returning to work a friend’s mother passed away suddenly and she became angry with us because my hubby couldn’t attend the wake due to work.
At the end of July things began to look up when I spoke with my grandmother about splitting the cost of a ticket for my mom to come visit for her 50th birthday. I was happy, excited and over joyed. I haven’t seen my mom since April/May 2009 and want her to see Kay for the first time and visit with Khloe and Keira again. My excitement was short lived because during my most recent call with my mom she stated that she didn’t think she could come anymore. It has made me realize that sometimes it just isn’t worth trying to have a relationship with someone anymore. She moved in November 2007, leaving me with a infant, pregnant and homeless. Since her move she has returned once in December 2007 for Khloe’s first Christmas. The only reason I saw her in 2009 was because we came into some extra money so hubby, myself and the older two (Kaylee wasn’t even conceived yet) purchased tickets and visited. She doesn’t call to just say hello, ask how we are doing, nothing. I make all the calls. She will only pick up the phone to call on a birthday.
It really hurts me. When she was here we were best friends, lived together, helped each other. Before she moved I had never lived without her. For almost 26 years I had her by my side and for about 8 of those years it was just the two of us. I don’t understand how someone can go from being such a large part in a person’s life to barely acknowledging their existence? It’s like outside of my sister and nephew she doesn’t have another child or other grandchildren. It seems like my trying has not paid off, so I guess it is time to throw in the towel. It takes two to work on a relationship and she obviously doesn’t care.